So this song came on the radio immediately after I left cell group called This is A Call by Thousand Foot Krutch. And a portion of it really describes me. I mean it might not be true to how You might see me, but it makes a lot of sense if you were inside my head.

And he tells everyone a story,

Cause he thinks his life is boring

And he fights so you won't ignore him,

Cause that's his biggest fear

And he cries, but you'll rarely see him do it

And he loves but he's scared to use it

So he hides behind the music

Cause he likes it that way

And he knows,

he's so much more than worthless

He needs to find the surface

Cause he's starting to get nervous

Have you ever felt this way before

Cause I don't wanna hide here anymore

Take me to a place where nothing's wrong

And thanks for coming, shut the door

And they say some one out there sees us,

Well if you're real, then save me Jesus

Cause I've been this way for far too long

I wasn't meant to feel alone

Its odd how much this song made me think of myself. It is uncanny how true these lyrics are. See I love to tell stories. The taller the tale the better, and the best thing is getting people to believe them. It is a lot of fun. My biggest fear is being forgotten, ergo I do what I can to make myself seem a little more memorable. I cry a lot, but only in private, if you spend a lot of time with me, you might even have seen me cry once in a while. But the biggest thing that is like me is that I do hide in the music. Granted in music I am typically centerstage, but not with musical theatre. I am a character, and well thats not who I am.

The chorus just says exactly how I feel basically Right now. I mean it's true I wasn't meant to feel alone

So you get the drift?Hi. Me I am 19 years old. Male. Nothing Special but
Just a Guy Searching for Christ.
Mitch

This popped up while searching for "You Alone are Savior" by the David Crowder Band

Really Cool I thought 

God: Hello. Did you call me?

Me: Called you? No. Who is this?

God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will Chat .

Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I am actually busy now. I am in the midst of something.

God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.

Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic. It's rush hour all the time.

God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

God: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time, by giving you some clarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach you through the Medium you are comfortable with.

Me: Tell me, why has life become complicated now?

God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated .

Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because you are analyzing. Worrying has become your habit. That's why you are not happy.

Me: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional .

Me: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty...

God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

Me: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?

God: Yes. In every term, Experience is a hard teacher. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

Me: But still, why should we go through such tests? Why can't we be free from problems?

God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading...

God: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving In the right direction. What should I do ?

God: Success is a measure as decided by others. Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.

Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?

God: Always look at how far you have come rather than how far you have to go. Always count your blessing, not what you are missing.

Me: What surprises you about people?

God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" When they prosper, they never ask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth on their side, but few want to be on the side of the truth.

Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. I can't get the answer.

God: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation.

Me: How can I get the best out of life?

God: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel my prayers are not answered.

God: There are no unanswered prayers. At times the answer is NO.

Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am so happy to start the New Day with a new sense of inspiration.

God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don't believe your doubts and doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

So you get the drift?Hi. Me I am 19 years old. Male. Nothing Special but

Just a Guy Searching for Christ.
Mitch